My God,school is such a mess for me this sem..ive been missing many lessons due to the student seminar.I feel so pressured to know tt i have so much to catch up..God,help meeee!!!
I am sick of u.I cant believe anyone could ever disappoint like U did.I cant believe tt i HATE u this much.Ur a messed up person who will NEVER find true friendship or Love in this lifetime IF you continue to be like wad u are now..a WHORE.
Ever had a day for yourself when nothing seems to go smoothly? Its like you wait for a day which is entirely urs but when u get it,its nothing at all.
I feel lonely,bored,sick,crazy,unwanted..and i did everything i could to wear it off..But in the end i juzt went to sleep.It was like i was stuck in a nightmare which was 24hrs.
I’m not sure y,but watever it is..i pray it will become clear for me.
Yes..my Title says it all..Turing 21 isnt all Goody good.There are alotta responsibilities and ur left alone to make the decisions and shit..I celebrated my birthday which was on 1st march in an indian restaurant where the food was exceptionally sumptuous. The glits and glam makeup,the proud photoshoot,the dieting and stress..everything paid off.A big huge shoutout at this point..
A BIG FAT THANKEW TO ZAD(photographer),ALIF(Make-up Artist),JOYCE(Hairstylist),SARVESH(Assistant for overall),HENDRA(moral support)MAHA(Decoration), SENTHIL(backdrop), SASEE&VIKI(Deco help), ELMO(DJ)! THANK U GUYS SO MUCH!LOVE YA”LL!
I had some emotional roller coaster issues during the preps too..but I’m Kaya,An adult Now.And so i got over it and now everything’s fineee.I’ve learnt who to avoid and keep a distance with,who can be trusted and who can be real FAKE.Yeap,im always observing things,ppl..yes i can assume alot but really,it was all an eye-opener.
Thanks u all for the presents.My SC members reeli touched me by making the party more exciting,u guys RAWK!
Im gonnabe very busy in this holidays.But im going to enjoy it and learn to say NO when i reeli think i need time for myself.Yes.Its time ppl get the word NO from me.I cant be involved in everything everytime man.I dun feel like being so super uber active anymore.Its time i give others a chance n all..
And boyfriend,thanks for being there.=]
I’m always typing about normal stuff..So I’ve decided to be random and talk abt dating.There are so many types of dating nowadays..so here are some solid tips.[Vday special]
DO
Keep yourself grounded. What really happens when someone sweeps you off your feet? You lose your balance and he’s still standing up. Is that what you want to happen at the start of a relationship?
DON’T
DO
Have a nice day ya’ll! =]
Oh wad a week,Exhaustion,frustration,stress,agony and blurness.Kaya u r a bloody mess now.Wad’s new with me..i got debarred for both modules. -.- I know rightt..”waaaaaadd”.But i checked earlier..my attendence is abt 78%..And those who got below 75% only get debarred.Well of coz it isnt a big deal for me coz I have all the leave letters in SC for duties and MCs..So Reshmi said “appeal letter will be approved dunt worry”.Bleah.Wireless is a biittchh n the tcher who is conductin it,shan’t say names is another bigger bitch.Exam at 9th march! Arrghh..and the case study isnt convincing as im grouped with mysterious fellas.
21st bday preps have been a big stress too..Becoz i want my big day to be PERFECT.For once,i want to shine from the rest,happily cut the cake,see everyone in a big fat room and have as much FUN as i can think of.So i wud like to thank all my lovely friends for all the help u guys r giving me..its very thoughtful and sweet of u guys..whereas some dun reeli do anything more den complain n get me more stressed.Thanks for that as well.I take it as negetive motivation,lol..
Tuition’s not reeli helping as this particular assignment’s sucha drag.I have decided to discontinue it..but sadly,its good pay though..but wad can i do if the kids r so incooperative? So,i guess i will be free for atleast 2 days in a week if i stop tt assignment..well yes tts good news coz i get time for myself..
SC-havent had meeting yet so nth much..i received a camp form today..Blaze 2! Woahh..end of march..its gonnabe fun i can just see it..but a part of me tells me not to go..becoz ive not been feeling very well lately..So i havent submitted the forms as of yet.
I have so many things to do..and all those things r floating in my mind now..Gosh y did they push the lesson to thurs? Now its like 8-5 lor..tiringggggggg. School’s wearing me out but thanks for friends,im motivated to pull thru and come sch.
Generally,With so much stuff happening,I dunt have the time nor the energy for arguements,moodswings,petty fights,silent wars,indirect approaches,badmouthing,stupid issues and emotional breakdowns of any sort as they arent very helpful..So I’m Just gonnabe here,sitting,waiting and wishing.
Have any of u ever felt like u know someone so well..but den u dunt? Let’s say u know everything about that person but there are certain things u dunt like about them and it catches u by surprise when they let go one particular thought tt disgusts u,frightens u and so on?
They make u feel like ur not good enough.Lousy and unfit.But the fact is They love to make themselves look correct and perfect everytime becoz they know ur nice enuff to let them play ball with u..becoz ur better then them.He/she is juz doing this so that they feel better about themselves.So idiotic isnt it? Some ppl dunt even know they are being pushed abt and their chance to shine gets overshadowed by these morons.For that grp of ppl,”PLEASE WAKE UP!” becoz u need to show ur superiors atleast ONCE that ur actually better than the rest.So that the superiors understand that u DO have the ability to stand where u are but u prefer to lay low and not be an empty vessel.And for ppl like me who alredi knows tt ur being pushed ard sometimes..juz lay low coz everyone knows ur capable of stuff. I read this somewhere about how certain ppl always bully their ppl thinkin they r so perfect.And i know there are soo many of those affected ppl there who wanna scream and give it to em but they r juz too scared or nice to not do sucha thing.But ppl,Every Dog has its day.So have a boil-meter for urself..when u cant take it,u HAVE to speak ur mind..and make sure u do it loudly,showing anger emotions becoz it will DEFINTLY make u feel 100% better.And it will be an alarm to the ones who r responsible becoz then,it will hit on em so hard they will know they cant mess wit u anymore.
I heard alot of stuff lately that’s been going on in sch.Im not too happy to hear it all.Everyone’s human,not everyone’s perfect.So when there’s a cat in the rat-hole,situation does happen to explode.So i suggest the cat either becomes a rat or leaves the rat-hole for the better.Change is always good.When someone days “eeww,wad r u wearing? i think it makes u look fat!”,u need not bother becoz u still like wad ur wearing.But when 20 other ppl say the same thing,its time u CHANGE.And to that one person who this msg applies to,PLEASE change.Its good for u and for everyone else too.
Im not going to be happy when i hear something similar happening again.Becoz i love my ppl,and i will never want to hurt them in anyway..And tt particular person would know this by now i bet.Kaya is nice,but not everyday.
On a brighter note,HAPPY 1 YR ANIVERSARY to my darling babyboy.I really appreciate the lovely chocoz and tt wonderful perfume.it was so sweet of u! Muaaaaaaaaccccckkkkksssssss
Man,im out!
Well,The new yr has started pretty well..and as usual,i’ve been busy with school and 4 tuition assignments now.The kids r a cute bunch with learning spirit.They can get a lil mischevious and annoying at times..but i have the authority to scold them,give them lines to write and anymore protesting will get them to do more homework then usual.I know! I’m sucha bully..but its fun ya know!
It was Maha’s bday..So as usual,Her good friends like me and Sasee planned a hush-hush 21st surprise.We chose the bottle tree park in yishun..Sasee discreetly called her good friends like Naqiah,Ninja(Ahmad),Dinesh,Velu,Suresh and Wing(Viki)..unfortunately some didnt turn up,so it was juz Naq,Ninja,Dinesh,Sasee,Me and my bf for the day.Me and Josh got a an Enormous teddybear tt cost us a bomb.BUT Maha is juz too cute and deserving for it.Haha,she was like hugging the bear like a little child.And Josh selected an extremely chocolaty cake for her.The irritating part was waiting for the bday girl and Sasee for 2 hrs.I know..it sucks to wait.But Maha is very well known for her “punctuality”..We all told her its something she shd try n change as she’s alredi 21.Ohhhh i forgot to add tt me n josh actually made her a handmade card..we painted it and stuff coz it was made from different material and sponges..She loved it as usual..My dearest friend was so surprised with the amount of effort we put..i cud see she was very touched.Well,its a 21st.And i personally think everyone shd do it bigger den any usual bday.Even if ur not rich,u shd make it dramatic.Its a key to freedom,adulthood and noone will treat u like a child anymore.The food we had was abt $170.But it was worth every penny.We had a fun time..went to the nearby reservoir and slacked there,sharing stories n exchanging ghostly tales(very brave of us).
But lately,i’ve been very afraid of insects.There was a lizard tt appeared on tt table.And i jumped out..i was hugging Maha until Ninja n sasee shooed it away.And Maha was tellin them how fast my heart was pounding.And wen i went to the park,there were so many ants..i was so conscious abt them n kept looking out for em.They all were saying tt maybe its the early stages of my phobia and i shoud really stop myself from getting terrified n stay calm.And they all gave me tips.SHIT.Wad a wuss am i to freak out for insects.But maybe tts abt the only thing i react for terrified n shocked to.Josh knows how easily i can cry if im scared of some insect tt juz landed on me.Kaya,u MUST be brave ok?
Some pics of the event.
well,atleast for now this is wad i have. =]
We r singing for herrr.
The song's over and she is blowing out the candles after makin her wish.
And the cake's been cut!!! *claps*
Ahh..It was all wonderful.We love u di!
And then it was My cute Neice’s 7th.Yuroshana the princess.Lol. It was a fabulous croded night with relatives from papa’s side..I miss them and love them so much.Had fun catching up and laughing my ass off..and to wrap it up..a few pics.
Princess blows out the candels..
Immediately gets attacked by fellow princesses..
She finds a few seconds to prose for papparazi showing all her beauty.
Yes i know,cuteness isnt she? But dun be fooled.There’s one helluva dancer hiding beneathe her..and she is a vainpot even at the age of 7.Well,i think she’s gonna make it big someday. =] tts abt it now,chaoz!
Some say friendship is juz a part of life. But to me,Friendship is something that has thought me so much.My first friend from kindergarten to Primary school is Shantini.She is like wood.Solid,strong and supportive to everything i do.She never gives up on me..neither has she ever given up on anything.We’ve laughed,fought,seen each other cry and played those silly games we used to as kids.
Shantini And Me,childhood besties
Then when I went secondary school.I used to mix with sooo many ppl.But of coz,the cream of the whole cake is few of them only.They are Hendra,Zad,Joyce,Fateen,Senbagam and Denesh.My best friend however,is Hendra.He’s fun to be with.He used to be very quiet..but den when we sat in class together,i found out he’s actually as crappy as me.We became good friends,started hanging out and soon,our friendship was indestructible.He was always there for me,listening and sharing his opinions with me.But we’re never serious..we tend to do very crazy things and play pranks,start rumours and irritate ppl together,I learnt from him alot of things,mainly to improve my dress sense,good music and good food.If ur reading this moron,u have played a big part in my life and thankew for everything u have done for me,*hugs*..I miss secondary school life.
Next is Zad.A clumsy boy with good looks and talents buried in himself.He has always been there for me,sharing problems n solutions..I learnt from him confidence and alot of stuff abt self esteem
Zaddy And Me
.Joyce is another good friend of mine who is also there for all of us..im not super close to her but to wad i know,u can tok anythin and everything to her and she’ll listen to u..and with all 4 of us together,it will be a tremendous day filled with laughter.
Joyce Poking Me
When i flopped my O levels,sadly,i didnt see Zad n Henz at first..i kept to myself..but they nv fail to pester me to join them,console me and comfort me.I went to ITE Balestier and i found 2 very good friends.They are Sab And Maha..Sab is someone who is very understanding,unique and also fragile.We dunt get to see each other alot now but i do miss hanging out with her.And lastly Maha,we r still in ITE Dover together..and she has been an absolute darling to me..and i learnt from her that patience pays off alot.By the way babe,Happy21st bday to ya!
Friendship Is a journey.As u grow up with one another,u discover more things then juz hanging out together,toking nonsense and giving listening ear.Its more then that really.There are many ppl we may call friends who will leave in a matter of time.They are not true friends,they are mere acquaintances.I shd thank God for giving me such great friends.Without u guys,I will truly be a very unhappy person.Thank You ppl for adding colors to my dull life.
Ok..So there’s A New Blog of mine now as i didnt blog for so long in my previous blogspot tt i forgot my password.And laziness told me to forget abt finding it.And Hendra told me i will NEVER update..and also added a “Will see abt tt” when i said i will! HAHa..Wad to do..im juz not very into this..but nevertheless,i still try! =] That’s abt it for now i guess..
